So I went to see Dr. Jaime this weekend- LOVE HER. She called me out on some stuff and she was absolutely right. First of all, I only want to blog when I am have a GREAT day. She pointed out that when I have a bad day is when I need to blog the most, and also I need to be totally honest about my behavior around food. So I need to make more of a commitment to being vulnerable and not be afraid of being embarrassed. So here is today:
PRE WOD 5am- Pumpkin muffins (1/3 C canned pumkin, 1/2 C egg substitute, 2 TBSO cocnut flour, pumpkin pie spice)
5:30am WOD- totally took it easy because my shoulders are JACKED UP from Saturday, ridiculously light weight and DID NOT hang from the pull up bar to do T2B (did GHD instead)
POST WOD 6:45am- 1 scoop Hydro Whey protein powder
9:30am- 1 1/2 oz salmon, 1 C cooked mixed collard greens, spinach, cabbage, onion, 1/4 tsp omega 3,6,9,oil
1:15pm- 3 oz whiting fish, 1 C grape tomato, 1 C cooked asparagus, 1 C mixed turnips, eggplant, brussels sprouts, 1 tsp fish oil
4:30pm- 3 oz salmon, 1 C cooked asparagus, 1 C cooked collard greens, spinach, onion, 1/2 tsp fish oil
5:30pm taught a step class
7pm- taught a weight class- I didn't really participate 100% in these classes I did more "instructing" than anything
8:45pm- 3 C homemade veggie soup, 3 oz turkey breast.
Here is where things went array. I had such a great day, measured out all my meals and then I come home to see that my mom (who was babysitting) brought a Costco rotisserie chicken over and it was sitting on the stove calling out to me. So I stood over the stove and ate a lot of the chicken, I don't even know how much but I ate maybe almost half but even worse was that I ate it standing up over the stove. Then I ate some vegetables also standing and some sunflower seed butter, and also like 1/2 cup blueberries. So now I am totally full and it is 10:25pm and it all started with thinking, "I'll just have a bite..."
This is what keeps me from reaching my goals. I don't know why I do it to myself, but I do, and I DO NOT want to do it anymore. So I will keep on writing about this in this blog EVERY NIGHT because I need to. Dr. Jaime was right when she said the only way that it is going to get better is to be honest with the group