Friday, January 25, 2013

Amanda M...Day 365

So…I survived the Year Long Assessment. I have blogged about the past 365 days of my life!

The purpose of this was to hold ourselves accountable for our actions; journal about our day to day struggles and triumphs for all to see. I have been through many ups and downs along the way, as have many of the other members who participated. It was great to have support and to know that we are not alone in all of this. Although many of the other members faded away from the daily blogging, I know that if I approached any of them in person, or through Facebook, that they would offer their full support and vice versa. And I bet all of them are really really well too!

We were asked to write down some of our goals that we wanted to accomplish throughout the year. In a nutshell, mine were to: hit a total of 100lb weight loss (at the time it was a mere 40lbs more to go…), be more confident, and to hit some new PRs (180 power clean, 8min 2k row, unassisted pull up, etc) The end result? *cue crash and burn sound clip* I didn't hit a single one of them. I put on weight, making my goal of hitting 100lb total loss even further out of reach. I am JUST starting to come out of my back corner spot and making my way up to the front of the class. I am 10lbs away from hitting my 180 power clean goal (close is not good enough for me), haven’t tested my 2k row and am still a slave to the dreaded ring rows. Life is full of failures though so I’ll just take this past year as it was and grow from it.

So, what exactly have I been doing all year? I tend to sit here while writing my blog posts and ask myself that question all the time. It seems that throughout this past year, every time I take one step forward, I've been taking two steps back. But when I really focus, and count all up the little successes, I do feel a sense of accomplishment and pride. What I can say for sure, is that this assessment has really opened up my eyes. I may not have hit any of my big goals, but at least I've been able to figure out what has been holding me back from accomplishing them. This upcoming year will be my year to finally get on track and stay there. I finally have 100% confidence in saying that.

Blogging has become a routine for me, as well as a mini therapy session. Although most of my posts have gone un-read, it still felt great to get shit off my chest—cry a little, rejoice often and swear a lot. So,  I will continue to blog on my own and invite you all to continue following my life. My blog is full of recipes and rants as well. It’s a good time!

Thanks for all the support and I look forward to turning this year long assessment into a lifelong one. A big thanks for Jay, Kathy and Dr Jaime for putting all of this together! It's been life changing.

Amanda M...Day 364

Woke up and did my 3 miles. It's cold down in my basement in the morning lol not fun. But, it's better than going out and driving somewhere.

Speaking of car wouldnt start yesterday morning. Luckily my roommate gave me a jump in the morning so I could get to work and my co-worker helped me out after work. Once I got home, I knew I wouldnt make it to crossfit cause no one was home. Had the weather been a bit more tolerable, I could have walked/ran there but it was just way too cold. I did my morning workout so missing the 205 calorie Tour de CFM workout wasn't too big of a deal.

Today is the last day! Bittersweet...I'll have a nice sum up post tonight. Maybe some of my fellow YLAers will make an appearance?? We'll see...

I will continue to blog on my personal blog:

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Amanda M...Day 363

Woke up early yesterday and did my 3 miles on the treadmill. Thank god for Netflix...I can't imagine running every morning just staring at a wall in silence.

Work wasnt too bad...just glad it is almost Friday!

Didnt go to crossfit after work. I just knew I wasnt going to give it my 100% cause there was absolutely nothing about last nights workout that I wanted to do. I just really hate wall balls, TGUs and 'pull ups'. I dont really want to do tonights airdyne from hell workout either but I know it will feel great once it's over.

Two more days

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Amanda M...Day 362

Yesterday started off rough. Getting out of bed at 5:45 to go run took alot of convincing. I hit the snooze a few times, sat there and had an internal battle...but eventually I  got up and got it done. 3ish miles

Food was on point--had a few pieces of chocolate. I dont know what it is about chocolate that is so damn comforting.

Snatch grip DL

10 min EMOM:
2 HPC: 125#
4-6 push ups


2 bench press: 95#
20 sec box jumps: three 45# plates

Was a good workout. Felt strong.

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Amanda M...Day 361

Yesterday was good. Food was clean besides some ranch dressing on my salad.

Workout was horrible haha but aren't they always? I need to remember how shitty I feelt after not working out for 4 days and eating like an idiot. It doesn't feel nice...yet, I do it anyways.

Really mad at myself for what I did over the weekend. I had it in my head that I was going to be good...that even if I did eat something less than healthy that I wouldn't go overboard. That didnt work. I dont know what it is about my addiction to food...even though I know 100% that I shouldn't be doing it, I still do it anyways. Now I'm sitting here at my desk with my pants unbuttoned cause they are too tight when last year they were falling off of me.

It took me 20 min to talk myself into getting up early to run today. I almost didn't but finally just threw my covers off and sucked it up. What happened to my drive?

Monday, January 21, 2013

Amanda M...Day 358, 359 & 360

It's the final countdown! So sad :-(

Had a great weekend. So so so relaxing. I did nothing but sleep and watch tv...that's what VT is for! What about skiing you say? Fuck that...

I did eat like an idiot though, of course. Cause I'm an asshole with self sabotage issues. My cousin had the house stocked full of junk food because it was her last weekend to go crazy as she is starting her weightloss and working out journey today. The other two girls had no problem saying no to things but my cousin and I just had that mentality "It's in the house...might as well eat it"

I was sore from last monday's workout all the way until Saturday!! How crazy is that?

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Amanda M...Day 357

Good day. Work wasn't too horrible. Low stress day...hoping tomorrow will be the same.

I skipped the workout. My legs are still really killing me. Usually by now my legs arent to horrible but I am still hurting even getting into bed. So yeah...20 min of squats and deadlifts just didnt sound like a good idea. Sometimes you just need to listen to your body and take a rest day.

Well, off to bed. Working a short day tomorrow then I am off to Vermont!!