Amanda M...Day 309

Yesterday was an ordinary day. Work was awful...people calling for money. Not new...but I had one bitch who really chewed my ass out. Normally, everyone is really nice and understanding. Hell, I may be the one Accounts Payable woman in the world who actually answers emails and phone calls. Its definitely not fun.....is this really my life??

Workout was good. Worked out with Ellie! Been a while since we've gotten to squat together. It's always nice working out with people who are not only the same height as me but can lift the same as well. I hate working out with shorter people...I have to squat down before I even get loaded up to do a squat lol I'm used to it though!

Food yesterday was good. Had a mug cake for dinner though. I just needed some damn chocolate. Anxiously waiting to hear back from Jay...I wanna get this shit started! I know if I am given food lines to follow, I never stray. Its when I get to make decisions on my own that I really fuck myself over. My brain is stupid

Amanda M...Day 308

Oh what a feeling...first week back at CFM after a month hiatus is taking a toll on my body. Holy shit, I haven't been this sore in forever. Had to take last night off...I was hurting bad. Every muscle that was the most sore was one of the muscles that I would have had to work last night so I thought it best to take a rest day. I spent about 30 minutes in our sauna...felt awesome. I think I will make a routine of it. How much is too much?

Food was on point until dinner...had some pasta. My roommate ate some while I was watching TV and it triggered some serious cravings. I need to get this shit under control before I start with whatever Jay has for me. I will not fail him or myself!

Shoutout to Yadi...you are awesome. I see great things in your future!

Amanda M...Day 307

So, meeting with Jay was quick. I wrote down my goals and what I eat on a normal basis. I even wrote down that on weekends I have cheat meals, drink alochol or sometimes skip meals altogether. He didn't say much...looked very serious. He intimidates the crap out of me sometimes lol

He saw my fat loss goal and that I had a goal weight. He told me that if I concentrate on fat loss as a priority, that I would lose some of my strength and get tired faster during workouts and if I was okay with that. I immediately said yes. However, as the rest of the night went on...I was rethinking that whole thing. I dont want to lose a lot of strength!

But THEN I went over to my boyfriends and talked to him about it. He said that losing as much fat as I want while trying to build muscle would take an immense amount of dedication and perfect 100% flawless nutrition. And then he asked me the right question. "Right now...without thinking...tell me if you want to get stronger or lose fat" and immediately I responded lose fat. So I guess the game plan right now is to get to my goal 'size' and then work on my strength. I know it will be easier for me to do a lot of movements without the extra 40lbs on me so we'll see how it goes...

Jay told me he'd have something for me by next week. Not sure if it will be a nutrition plan, workout plan, or both.

Workout yesterday wasn't horrible. Got up to 95lbs for the snatch triple. Felt good!

Amanda M...Day 306

So nice to speak with Anonymous (Brian) after class last night. Beyond amazed he has gone 100 days strict paleo. I wish I had that will power. Maybe I do...just not there yet. I need my sugar/chocolate or else I get extremely moody. Maybe it's a hormonal thing. Vaginas are a bitch

Anywho, last nights workout was not one of my favorites. Box jumps and I were never friends, and being out of the gym while stuffing my face with unmentionables for a month made me dislike them even more. I was on a 15" box and only managed about 5 jumps before I had to switch over to step ups. My legs were jello and I was huffing and puffing so hard....brought me back to my 260+lb days and I did not enjoy the feeling.

I will be meeting with Jay tonight to go over my goals and nutrition. I tossed and turned all night last night because it's all I could think about. Most people have a big list of goals. I have 2...

1. Fat loss (honestly, having the body I've always wanted will open the doors for me in more way than one--confidence, happiness, ability to move better, run better, pull ups, confidence to at least TRY moves that I'm too embarrassed to try and fail at)
2. Go-Ruck challenge. This is always something I've wanted to try, especially after reading about Yadi's experience!

Nutrition:
The week days are great. The weekends...not so much. Curious to see what he will have to say about it. I hope he goes the tough love route...that always works for me. My karate teacher-whom I knew since birth and trained with for 20 years-was always hard on me. I miss it.

My big question for Jay tonight will be...programming. Should I do it? Or will I be successful on my own? Can he weight me in every week/two weeks to keep me in line?

I will let you know how it goes. In the meantime...wtf is up with tonight's workout? Weird...

Amanda M...Day 304 & 305

Ah, the holiday is finally over. Now we have one month until the next shit show...time to do some work.

So my body basically hates me right now. I've stuffed it past its limits for days and I regret every bite (maybe wasnt regretting it while it was happening but definitely paying for it now...)

Today was the first time in a month that I was able to cook myself a good breakfast and lunch for work. It already feels great! Very happy to be back on track

So, this is going to be the game plan for me. I tried the no-sugar thing...twice. And each time, I failed miserably. And by that, I mean I had a few binge fests on candy and other sweets. I just can't live completely without...not yet. So, I brought dark chocolate covered almonds back into my life starting today. I will also be getting back into baking paleo treats. It keeps my cravings under control. Also, I've always been one to tell people "if you want something, just have it! Just dont go crazy..." so this method will keep me from going crazy.

I will let you all know how it goes--of course ;-)

Only 60 days left. Bittersweet. I will miss blogging...so it looks like I'll have to get my other page back into shape so I can continue writing to an audience of 0-2 people lol

How did you guys survive the holidays?

Amanda M...Day 302 & 303

Happy Thanksgiving all!

Man, I really stuffed myself yesterday. More than once.

Thursday I ate everything in sight. It is so freeing be able not to worry about what I eat. Not beating myself up for having pie, cake and ice cream all in one sitting. But once I get to that point where my 'fat pants' are getting more and more uncomfortable and tight...it all comes crashing back. I get reminded of how miserable I used to be in comparison to how happy I was at my smallest...sucks. I just cant have my cake and eat it too...I will have to watch what I eat for the rest of my life.

Jay wants to meet up this coming week to go over my goals. I feel like I've been expressing my goals this whole year and keep falling short every time. What I need to do is find what is going to finally get my ass in to gear and to keep me there. Maybe he will have some insight

Maybe I need to do weigh ins with him. To have someone else see my progress--or lack thereof--to keep me in check.

Anyways...happy holidays lol

Happy Thanksgiving - Day 302

Amanda, Nitro...Love you guys. That's all I want to say about that.

Ok, so the hard fact is that I Yadhira "Yadi" Ortiz allowed to let life get in the way of my goals when it comes to my overall fitness. Not saying I'm completely in the shits BUT I'm definitely not where I want to be physically. My athletic abilities have taken a dramatic turn. I have strayed away from what is considered traditional CF woding and have given myself to Oly lifting. Not saying that I would never wod again because I will trust me. But as every who knows me and have seen my posts, Oly's got my heart.

The down side of it all is I can't afford premium membership for now (hopefully this dry spell will end soon) and unfortunately one of the requirements before a sanctioned meet is that you get weighed in. Now I haven't weighed myself in a REALLLLY long time. I have no desire to do so for once in my life. But I saw the magic number and it was heartbreaking (but not a surprise) for about 5 minutes. I couldn't let my head space go there before a meet but trust me its been floating around my head for the past couple of days. I gained alot of weight...no really, I mean a lot of weight. And no I'm not that mature to tell you how much I weigh ;-).
I'm actually confused that I can still fit in my clothing...but add more weight and it's a wrap. My one pair of skinny jeans? Forget it! My thighs violently laughed at me the last time I tried to wear them.
The beauty of it all is that I've grown mentally about this whole weight thing. I've become numb to it. Not too long ago I would totally trip and just get so down about my weight. It would change my mood like the sky was falling. Not anymore, I can't explain it. Now its like I tell myself, "ok bitch you know what you have to do now get to it! This ain't your first time at the rodeo!"
Hell I knew this almost two weeks ago without getting weighed. I knew that I had to shift gears and mean it and stop starting over and over again.

So what's the upside to this blog on Thanksgiving day. The fact of the matter is that the first time I lost the weight on my own with no gym membership. Just pure tenacity, want, determination and drive. So there is no reason to fuck up is there? If theres a will theres a way. I still have CFM, I went through the grapevine and found a stationary frame for my bike at no cost. So yea I have an airdyne minus the fan in my room now. So I just have to get just as creative like I did almost 3 years ago.

So if my calculations are correct we got 63 days till this YLA is over? Before I even saw this blog I knew as of Monday that today would be my last legit splurge. And starting anew on Friday. So I have 63 days to shake shit up. Lets start with a small time frame and see what kind of damage (in a good way of course) I can do in that time. I plan on going out with a bang on this one!!!

Smooches
xoxoxox

Amanda M...Day 297, 298, 299, 300 & 301

Wow this has been the longest I've got without blogging...shame on me!!

Been home from work all week...first time I've been away for this long since I got my promotion. I was a bit worried about what kind of mess I'd be coming back to afterwards but the past few days have been so relaxing. I've been taking advantage of it! Being very lazy! Love it!

Holidays always mess up my eating. I know it's no excuse. Trying to work on not going completely overboard.

FINALLY have a fridge so I've cut eating out down to a minimum. It feels so good! I was starting to get really nauseous every night and it was really starting to weigh on me. It's crazy how much food  has an affect on your attitude.

Hope everyone is doing well!

Day 300? WOW

Just wanted to check in quick.  Amanda you are just the greatest!  You stuck with this YLA wholeheartedly and determined I just want you to know that you truly are doing an AMAZING job!!!  So proud of you...seriously!   I hope you stick with the 5:30am class...awesome group of peeps and I'm there like 3 days a week interning with Jason at 5:30 and 6:30. 

First I want to speak about my diet.  With the holidays coming I'm sure I will eat some bad stuff but overall I'm not really throwing in the towel...ever!  I have some cheats here and there but that will all change in the short term.  My diet will be the cleanest its ever been at the 1st of the year...including ZERO alcohol until after my fate has been determined!!!  The OPEN will be upon us soon, like 3 months and I plan on making a statement.  I haven't trained my ass off since April for nothing.  The 2013 Games has been and is the goal and now it's clearly close enough to be on my radar.  The programming is hard and will continue to get harder and harder as we approach the Games.  Jason has pushed my well beyond what I thought I could handle physically and thank god cause I have become so much better at everything.  Last Saturday I absolutely crushed Muscle Ups, usually I will only get a couple.  But on that day I actually looked like I knew what I was doing and damn did it feel good.  Also, my times on my met-cons are coming down significantly.  My gymnastics are getting better and so are my Oly lifts but relatively speaking both still collectively suck compared to elite CFers.  I'm training and trying to be patient but I just feel I'm running out of time.  I need to get better, fast and efficiently...its just so crazy.  I'm not afraid to do the work to get the results, its just I feel it's taking FOREVER to get where I need to be.  These are just my own mental problems talking, I just want to be better, stronger and hold my own against high level CF athletes.  I just got to keep going!!!

Any YLA peeps that come across this post...we are in the home stretch now.  You can still half ass everything and at the end "what if" yourself to death or...and this is a big OR...dig deep and finish strong and do the best to accomplish your goals and feel good about how hard you worked and how hard you pushed to finish strong!  We (CFers) fully understand this is hard work and it takes significant motivation and determination to push yourself beyond your comfort zone.  It all boils down to one commonality...HOW BAD DO YOU FUCKING WANT IT?!!!  There will be no "what if's" in my vocabulary!!!

Amanda M...Day 296

Yesterday was another 530 am class. Not bad! A whole bunch of stuff mixed in but honestly, If i never have to do another pushup again in my life, I am totally okay with it. My chest is totally shot! My abs too...Oh did I mention how much I loathe FLR? They really mess up my shoulders...its not fun.

Starting to get my groove back. Feels nice. I have all next week off so I'll be able to jump in any class I want! Should be fun to try out different times :-)

Anonymous thought more people would follow the blog? To be honest, I never expected much of a following from this. A few months? Yeah maybe a few people would be interested. But I knew that for a whole year, people would drop off....the members included. I think some people stopped blogging before month 4. It was sad to see...and still is. I still come on here in hopes someone will do a random check in...make me feel not so lonely in all of this...but, it rarely happens lol Really glad to see Yadi write some posts though :-) Keep it up! I like hearing how you're doing!

Would I do this again? Knowing I'd be the only one who would stick with this for a whole year solid? Absolutely. It helps just to get everything out, even if no one reads it. I miss the meetings though! Even though no one really showed for those either haha but at least the people who did make it brought awesome treats!

69 days left! Its go time

Tough Decision(s)...Thursday

This is a quick one.

Well This past week has (once again) been one for the books. You know I've come to realize its never a dull moment for me. It may feel like it is when I have a quiet week but its all an illusion.

First of all I'm surprised I'm not breaking down yet. No, I mean a full out melt down. But I'm holding myself up right now. In sum I lost my job and I had to make possibly what felt like a the hardest decision I had to make to date. I had to decide to suspend my CF membership. I just couldn't afford it anymore. It's not the first time I've been in limbo with work and I've always managed to somehow keep the membership but this time the squeeze is too tight and I can't breath. Pressing the send button for that request via email hurt like a bitch. I mean it was weird. I didn't realize how attached I was to that place. I have to admit I was crying. I felt like I failed somehow someway. I feel like I'm going to gain even more weight and become 265 pounds again. Well...I felt fucked up!
I promised myself that I will have to be like many and CF/Oly on my own. I live on a second floor so this will be tricky. But I already have my brother and a friend of his with some connects on some used stuff like a barbell, a few plates. They're great scavengers they can find anything. The thing is how many times have we told ourselves that we will do something on our own and wind up vegging out instead.
This will be a test of will in many ways.

Still down, still sad, this sucks big fucking balls.

Amanda M...Day 295

Thanks for snapping me back to reality anonymous! I keep getting stuck in my old brain...back when I used to think I had to do cardio for like 4 hours a day to drop weight. Thanks for reminding me that strength days are just as, if not more, important.

Eating. Thats my biggest issue. I'm a huge food addict...like a crack addict. Except I use my spoons for ice cream, cookie dough or chocolate frosting. (Don't judge me.) I've come to realize that I just cant function with 100% strict eating like the lurong challenge. If I go that long without sweets (even paleo treats made with honey, etc) that I will binge my face off if I let my guard down for even a second.

I need to figure out what works for ME and stop relying for a strict challenge to come along and save me from myself. I have ALL next week off from work (so excited!!) I think I will spend it cooking up a storm. Huge portions of a bunch of things and just stock up the freezer.


Anyway...yesterday I started a new routine. I'm trying out the 5:30am class. I'm giving it a real go this time! (went this morning as well--got to see Maria!!) Its not that horrible. The classes are a bit smaller, I can get my workout out of the way so that after a long day at work I can just go home and relax. For some reason it is always easier to wake up and get to the gym when its 30 degrees out rather than do it in the summer. I'm really weird. So, anonymous, I probably wont see you for a while if all goes well haha not that I even know who you are. So mysterious. oOOoOoOo...

Amanda M...Day 294

So, I didnt run to the gym last night. It got a whole hell of a lot colder throughout the day and all my warm weather stuff is still in boxes (along with the rest of my life at the moment). But, I did get there. The gym is only .9 miles away...how awesome is that?

WOD:
RDL to the knees: 75/85/95/105
Power Clean 3.2.1: 125/145/155--its funny how my 1 rep max from just a few weeks ago is now part of a normal lifting day :-)
1 min amrap T2B
1 min amrap wall walks

Thank you guys so much for responding to my post yesterday. It was great to see both sides of the programming thing. Yadi, you are such a huge help! Getting that facebook message really got me pumped. Anonymous, you make some great points as well. Is it right for me?

I know if I email Jay and ask about programming, he is going to ask for my goal. I was thinking about this in the shower this morning...what I want most, more than anything...is to look good naked. Or better yet, feel great about myself while in my birthday suit. Thats it. It's that simple. I'm not looking to win the CF games...yet...but I need the cofidence first. I am strong. I have great form. I'm a natural born athlete. Yet, I have the confidence of a snail going into a horse race. I hide in the back. I hate standing out because I dont like people looking at me. I dont complete all reps because I dont want to be that fat girl who finishes last like I have my whole life.

Here's the thing. I dont know if programming would be good for that, or if I can get there with classes and I'm just not pushing myself hard enough. I just feel like I've been doing classes for 2 years now and have only maintained. I'm not going to drop weight with strength days like yesterday. Days like today...7 min AD and a kb/boxjump/DU workout? Yes.

Maybe I'll just email him and see what he thinks. Any other comments regarding my goal with programming are greatly appreciated!

Amanda M...Day 293

Shoutout to Anonymous. That quote you left in the comments yesterday really hit me hard.

I wont give up. I've come to far to let a few shitty weeks get the best of me.

I'll be back at the gym tonight--and I will be running there from my house. Knees are feelings better and I am more motivated than I have been in a long time.


Yesterday was a long day at work. Ate okay, minus a chocolate mug cake I made after the salad I had for dinner.

Thinking of trying the programming route come December. Good idea or no?

Amanda M...Day 290, 291 and 292

What a fucking weekend.

Friday I took off of work and spent the day packing up my room. I really didnt think I had that much shit...until I dug deeper and deeper under my bed and in the closet lol it took me forever!!!

Saturday, we were up by 7am and didnt close the door to the empty old house til 10:30 pm. It was a long day of lifting, going up and down stairs with heavy furniture and boxes, swearing, sweating and just wanting to kill people. So so glad it is over...well, at least that part is over.

Yesterday was the Colony Grill 5k...I didnt run it. My knees and back were all fucked up from everything I did the day before that I just knew it would be a really bad idea. After the race I spent the day unpacking...not my favorite thing. I have so much shit that I just want to throw away at this point. Luckily we unloaded everything into the garage so we can unpack things one by one instead of living among boxes inside the house....and anything that I dont move into the house by Chritmas, I am just getting rid of it.

The workout today looks horrible. I have absolutely 0 motivation to get in there today just because I know what is waiting for me at home and it doesnt help that my knees are still a little sore and beat up. Maybe I'll go for a walk/jog instead. I dont know. I've lost all hope at this point.

Oh, our fridge at the new house is broken. Might as well have stayed at the beach house. I JUST WANT TO BE ABLE TO LIVE LIKE NORMAL AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If i have to eat out for one more meal I will loose it.

Oh and Lurong challenge? Out the window...I've given up. The past 2 weeks have been hell and it isnt over for me yet either. The last thing I need after all this is to see that I've gained inches and lost improvement.

Gonna have a break down soon if things don't start looking up...I never break down. But I feel it coming...

Amanda M...Day 289

What the hell...we cant catch a break!!!

My suprervisor pretty much forced me to go home early yesterday because my street was supposed to flood AGAIN. I'm not so much complaining about getting out of work early...but I just want a week that is stress free. I feel like it's been forever..

No workout. It took me long enough to get home...at 3:00...so I can only imagine how bad the roads were later on in the night. I didnt want to chance getting home from the gym and not being able to get to my front door.

Cant workout tonight either because we are meeting with the new landlord. So there goes another week basically that is shot to shit.

I havent started packing, my room is a disaster...I really hope this move goes smoothly. I want my normal life back!

Amanda M...Day 288

Better day. Slept great except for waking up completely drenched in sweat...I even had the window open and there was frost outside in the morning lol not sure how I get so friggen hot.

Food: protein shake in the morning for breakfast, campbells southwest chicken chili for lunch, chicken parm with whole wheat pasta for dinner. All 'okay' besides dinner but hey...if my boyfriends mom offers to make me free food while I have no kitchen to cook for myself, I'll take whatever she is making.

WOD: First day back in over a week...had the jitters like crazy. I hate that feeling! Almost like first day of school nerves. It was a good day to come back...power cleans! lol nothing gets me back in the gym faster than those babies.

Hang power cleans, bench press, barbell rows, and AD sprint. A minute AD sprint, really?! That was just mean.

You know what else is mean? Todays workout....holy shit, I am not going to be able to walk for a week. I need to stop thinking about it or else I am going to make an excuse not to go lol

Amanda M...Day 287

Another shitty day. My food intake was a lot better...well, as good as Paleo can get given my situation. I really wanted pizza for dinner...like, really fucking badly. But I went to stop n shop's salad bar instead. Wise move!

No workout...my cousin called me last minute and needed a babysitter so I spent my night chasing around a 2 year old. Jesus, if I had half of the energy she has I'd get twice as much done in a day.

Good news...we are moving. It's quite clear that our house would not be finished any time soon so we decided to look at other houses. And by other houses, I mean just one. It is so hard finding a 4 bedroom! We had 1 option and THANK GOD we got it...or else we'd be stuck in a kitchenless house for god knows how long.

I will miss the beach...alot! I never really went out on it, I stayed in the AC most of the summer--I overheat even in the winter. But it was always so nice to look at in the morning with the sunrise. We are trading that in for a house that is within a mile from CFM...how cool is that?! I think that I will start running there and back--just to get in a little more of a workout. Hopefully this winter wont be horrible.

We move in this weekend. I am going to go CRAZY with cooking. I cant wait to be back to a normal routine...to a clean and complete house...woo! If anyone knows a cheap truck rental place, let me know!

It's Time...

It's time for a change.
I don't know what or how. That's whats really bothering me, but I do know it's time for a change.
A change from working in these legitimate shit jobs, being unhappy with my path. But how but when is the big questions. I think about it everyday. It's almost unsettling. I know for a fact that this isn't it, I can feel it in my bones. And no I just can't change it the very next day. I have responsibilites and I am the sole provider so I can't just do it like these feel good stories you see on TV. It has to be a slow (not too slow)  progression into it. BUT WHAT!!???

On a good note I had some PR's at Gary's this Sunday:

Squat Snatch: 88#'s
Clean & Jerk: 121#'s
Back Squat: 215#'s

Boo Yaaa!!!!

Amanda M...Day 284, 285 and 286

Still no kitchen...so no fridge or stove. Its really starting to get to me. There are only so many things that you can eat that doesnt need to be refrigerated...and can be cooked in a microwave. So basically, if I'm not eating out...then I am stuck eating extremely processed microwavable foods. This weeks menu? Hormell chili...no beans. That's as paleo as I can get in this situation, I'm afraid. And it fucking sucks.

Bought an omelette this morning...brocc and bacon. Paleo!.....Seven-fucking-dollars. Fuck me.

On the bright side, we found a house. We are just waiting to hear back about our background checks from the realtor. Please lord, let us be able to move in this weekend! I miss having a whole house!!! I'm going crazy!! My room is a disaster because it is the current living room and storage area. So everyone is in their all the time, and so is their shit. Kind of annoying...I dont mind a messy room--I'm a girl, clothes are usually everywhere....but this is just shit, all over the place. UGH!! Sorry, venting

Oh yeah...I WENT SKYDIVING!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was absolutely amazing. It went by SO fast. Once we got there and checked in, we were suited up and boarding the plane within 20 minutes. They went through instructions crazy fast because they were trying to beat the weather (was starting to get really windy) Once we were in the plane...my guy just scooted my ass to the door, had me smile for the camera, counted to 3 and we were flyin!! I didnt have any time to freak out or back out so it was perfect. The free fall was about 60 seconds, with a few minutes coasting with the parachute. I cant believe I actually did it. I cant speak in front of an audience or go to a party by myself but I can jump out of an airplane. I'm weird...

I want to live. Like truly live. I guess that's what happens when you highten your senses to such an extreme. It makes you realize how boring the rest of your life is. I go to work--a job I don't love but tolerate...go to the gym, go home, eat and sleep. Then do it all over again. Where's the excitement? The waking up and not wanting to just stay in bed all day?

Amanda M...Day 283

Friday: Nothing new going on. No gym, shitty food, shitty house but my outlook is still pretty positive.

Going skydiving tomorrow...was suppose to go last weekend but it was too cloudy. Hoping tomorrow it's going to happen! Woo!! I need it...I need a life changing experience!

Friday...Finally

So this week has been one giant Wod. It tested and it still is testing all of us in many, many ways. This one sure isn't for time. It's more like AMRAP....with a little bit of GoRuck mixed into it just so it could fuck with your mental toughness and to see how long its going to take before you break.

I thank God everyday that we were prepared for what was coming and we were getting mentally prepared to go without light and little food for more than a week. We got light after day 2, so it was a blessing.

My prayers go out to everyone severely affected by this storm and I know as humans we will fight through. It won't be easy but it will be done.

On a slightly different note. I got back into the gym this morning. Holy smokes I think it was harder to wake up and drive in than it was to do the actual wod. I'm to blame 100%. I stayed up too late, so I had to pay the piper. I didn't know what to expect this morning in terms of my performance. But I surprised myself again. I Rx'd the damn thing. Yes! Once again another boost in confidence that I am getting stronger. Very surprised because I haven't been working out since GG. So we're talking about almost 2 weeks!!

Very ready to start programming. Just waiting for Jays email for the actual wods then I get my lazy, fat ass back into gear!!!

Have a super safe and properous weekend!!!

Yadi

Amanda M...Day 280, 281, and 282

That Sandy sure was a bitch. We prepared for the worst so when we came back to see that our house was still in one piece, we were beyond relieved. Sure, 3 ft of water had been an unwelcomed guest while we were away but at least we didnt lose anything valuable...(besides a fridge, that is already becomming a huge issue)

Tuesday I spent all day ripping out our carpet and linoleum...and let me tell you, that was not easy. We washed our walls because of the water lines that were left. We tried mopping up the mud and water in our kitchen but it just got pushed around so we were literally on our hands and knees using a sponge to pick it up and wring it out into a bucket. It took a while..........a long while.......

I wont be at the gym this week. As soon as I leave work, I head back home to do more damage control. Yesterday was my bedroom--the current storage space from all the things we didnt want damaged that was downstairs. Tonight is the kitchen. Everything in the fridge needs to be tossed out, dishes are everywhere, its a mess. But ya know what? I still have a home and my health and that's all that matters. I may have it worse than most in Milford, but there are people even worse off than me. Thoughts and prayers go out to those who lost everything and many thanks to all those who have offered my roommates and I help in all forms.




Oh, you're probably curious as to what I've been eating. SHIT...complete and utter shit. Peanut butter fluff sandwiches, fast food, candy....anything that is quick/easy and doesnt need to be kept cold or reheated. It sucks. My body is hating me. I miss paleo more than I thought I would...