Here's the truth...
I didn't want to think about the YLA as a support group because I seriously thought I had it all under control... I was following my healthy eating plan, beginning marathon training, thoroughly enjoying life, and the numbers showed great results back when I last checked with Jay.
Then I started overtraining which completely messed up my body. I was doing two-a-days constantly, back to back WODs and 6-mile runs, etc. I kept pushing myself too far without any recovery. I was exhausted, sick (puking), and even missed my period... kinda sounds like pregnancy symptoms! I had to see the doctor to make sure everything was okay, physically. I was MIA from the blog for about two weeks when dealing with all that... I just didn't want anyone to know. So no... I wasn't pregnant but overtraining just seriously messed me up.
Then a series of terrible events took place on the job front... I became more stressed out than ever, when my two supervisors quit, and in essence, I was given all of their work, expectations, and deadlines. I am absolutely miserable now at work. Everyday, I think about quitting. I'm tearing up in the break room as I'm writing this because being here makes me so unhappy. I dread coming here in the mornings.
So anyway... This is not affecting my workouts. I run, do WODs, and yoga regularly (no more crazy two-a-days though). I definitely feel on track with the fitness aspect of things. But all of the work stress is affecting my persona. I'm normally such a fun, happy person, and my job is sucking all of the joy out of me.
I eat really well during the week, have an occasional cheat on the weekends, drink a few glasses of wine here and there... But maybe I need to talk to Dr. Jamie about things because my pants feel tight! I feel so uncomfortable.
Something really has to change. If blogging and accountability will help... I'll try it out again. But I just didn't want this to become my way of venting about all the extra shit and baggage I'm dealing with outside of the gym. So I'll keep it to a minimum and try to stay focused.
Thanks for listening and reading!
Scrambled eggs, 1 small piece of pork, & 1 tsp goat cheese
8 oz water; 1 cup coffee w/ almond milk
1 piece of pork, spinach, cauliflower rice
64 oz water
Plain Greek yogurt with granola
Protein shake with coconut water, berries, & spinach
1/2 piece of tilapia, broccoli, & snap peas, glass of wine
85% cacao chocolate
64 oz water
Ran 30 sec sprints & 3 miles