Well I dragged myself out of bed to go wod early this morning. It was tough, going in on only 4 hours of sleep. I gave it my all. Of course coach Tom was very incouraging and once I was done went home, showered, called out of work and went back to sleep.
10 minute amrap
3 squat cleans Rx 95#
Total in 10 Minutes: 15 Cleans and 5 runs
pushed hard on the last 4 or so cleans. My knees were screaming for mercy.
Yeah, I went to a group class. I don't think I'm programming for now. I don't think I'm quite built mentally to train by myself. As easy as it sounds to many people to do that, It's a lot more difficult than it sounds to do. For me I've always been the kind of gal that did things on her own. Even before CF I worked out on my own all the time. Never had a workout "buddy". And I was very successful in it. I lost my first 70# doing it. So I definitely gave it all I had. But because my head space now is a bit...(how can I say this) fucked up. I need to be around people and a certain kind of energy. It may sound hokey to many but it's something I've learned a couple times over. If I'm not in a group setting then I need at least a few people working with me and a coach. We don't even have to conversate. I hate talking and having a full out convo when its time to work. Just people working together getting shit done in the gym is good enough for me. I'm kind of at a crossroads again where I need to refocus my energy into other things or (once again) try to find a balance. Though I love CF, I had to back out on a couple of challenge comp opportunities. For some reason were all happening in the month of October. I really want to focus on my Oly training and do well at Trinity in November and any other Oly comps I may have. I'm having fun with it but I'm also taking it very seriously. I would like to do well as I progress. So that means I have to say no to a thing or two. But rest assured I will be there cheering on the other competitors and volunteering as well.