Thursday, October 18, 2012

Amanda M...Day 267

Slept from 1015-630...I love getting a full nights sleep. I get so cranky when I know I am going to bed late. I dont know how my friends can manage going to bed at midnight and waking up for work everyday.

Food: Added another egg in for breakfast and felt much better throughout the day. Also brought a bigger portion of my spaghetti squash and meatballs. I was really fully...a feeling I haven't felt in a while lol

4 rds-
800m ROW
25 push press 55#
25 K2E

Yeah, I rowed. Sue me. If I ran instead, I would have been there all night. I HATE finishing last when it comes to running workouts. Heavy power clean workouts like last week? Fine, I don't care because my ass is lifting 2x as much as the other women. Running? No...I'm still embarrassed by it. So I rowed. Besides, I've been running in the morning and would rather save my legs for that.

Weighed myself this morning. I really need to stop doing that. Seeing that scale number makes me really not want to eat. I battled with slight anorexia. (I feel like one of those fat guys wearing those "I beat anorexia" t-shirts when I say that because I'm no where near looking anorexic) I would have a glass of milk and half of a tuna sandwich..........and that's all I would eat all day. Sometimes I would just eat the tuna out of the can without bread. If I ate something I wasn't supposed to, I'd add in an extra hour of cardio. If I added extra workouts without eating more, I'd allow myself a watered down gatorade just to keep me going. It was bad...I looked fabulous...but it was bad. Every once in a while I get tempted to go down that road again but I know there would be no way I could survive a CF workout doing that shit. Oh, and because its unhealthy apparently..........

Ughhhhhhhhh. My body needs to stop being a dick and just do what I want.


  1. Rowing is no joke, it doesn't matter what you do, it's how you do it. You could have done 800 shakes with the shake weight as long as you shake the shit out of it, good job. On a side note, I love tuna from the can, no mayo bullshit. just fork it on to some romaine leaves. Of throw it in the processor with celery, tomato, and hot pepper, then scoop onto cucumber slices, that's good eats.

  2. I like my tuna...with lots of mayo, slathered on some bread and toasted with american cheese and bacon. *sigh*

  3. I agree with Anon. Rowing can be a bitch, so don't cut yourself short on it. I have NO problems with rowing. Running isn't friendly on my joints so I have to do what works for ME. You have to do the same. So wether you decide to run or row. Screw it you're still moving and working hard!

    What can I say about eating issues...everything I guess. Not only do I battle depression but I fight with body dismorphia. No matter how small I've gotten in the past I've always looked at myself as this massive person. It never changes in my mind. Hence for the past 4 or 5 years I've trained myself not to look in mirrors very much or at all. Even a reflection is a no no. Imagine, working out at a global gym in the past with mirrors all the way around. I was literally like a horse with blinders on. Eye site straight ahead NEVER towards a mirror.The scale I stay off of that shit. In my head I can never see a number that will make me happy so I have to accept how I feel. My body is my berometer. I can feel extra skinny one morning or I can feel crazy bloated one day. I've become very intune with how I feel rather than how I look. Hmmmm...maybe that's why I'm not much of a high maintenance girl ;-D