Yesterday was an ordinary day. Work was awful...people calling for money. Not new...but I had one bitch who really chewed my ass out. Normally, everyone is really nice and understanding. Hell, I may be the one Accounts Payable woman in the world who actually answers emails and phone calls. Its definitely not fun.....is this really my life??
Workout was good. Worked out with Ellie! Been a while since we've gotten to squat together. It's always nice working out with people who are not only the same height as me but can lift the same as well. I hate working out with shorter people...I have to squat down before I even get loaded up to do a squat lol I'm used to it though!
Food yesterday was good. Had a mug cake for dinner though. I just needed some damn chocolate. Anxiously waiting to hear back from Jay...I wanna get this shit started! I know if I am given food lines to follow, I never stray. Its when I get to make decisions on my own that I really fuck myself over. My brain is stupid
Friday, November 30, 2012
Thursday, November 29, 2012
Amanda M...Day 308
Oh what a feeling...first week back at CFM after a month hiatus is taking a toll on my body. Holy shit, I haven't been this sore in forever. Had to take last night off...I was hurting bad. Every muscle that was the most sore was one of the muscles that I would have had to work last night so I thought it best to take a rest day. I spent about 30 minutes in our sauna...felt awesome. I think I will make a routine of it. How much is too much?
Food was on point until dinner...had some pasta. My roommate ate some while I was watching TV and it triggered some serious cravings. I need to get this shit under control before I start with whatever Jay has for me. I will not fail him or myself!
Shoutout to Yadi...you are awesome. I see great things in your future!
Food was on point until dinner...had some pasta. My roommate ate some while I was watching TV and it triggered some serious cravings. I need to get this shit under control before I start with whatever Jay has for me. I will not fail him or myself!
Shoutout to Yadi...you are awesome. I see great things in your future!
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
Amanda M...Day 307
So, meeting with Jay was quick. I wrote down my goals and what I eat on a normal basis. I even wrote down that on weekends I have cheat meals, drink alochol or sometimes skip meals altogether. He didn't say much...looked very serious. He intimidates the crap out of me sometimes lol
He saw my fat loss goal and that I had a goal weight. He told me that if I concentrate on fat loss as a priority, that I would lose some of my strength and get tired faster during workouts and if I was okay with that. I immediately said yes. However, as the rest of the night went on...I was rethinking that whole thing. I dont want to lose a lot of strength!
But THEN I went over to my boyfriends and talked to him about it. He said that losing as much fat as I want while trying to build muscle would take an immense amount of dedication and perfect 100% flawless nutrition. And then he asked me the right question. "Right now...without thinking...tell me if you want to get stronger or lose fat" and immediately I responded lose fat. So I guess the game plan right now is to get to my goal 'size' and then work on my strength. I know it will be easier for me to do a lot of movements without the extra 40lbs on me so we'll see how it goes...
Jay told me he'd have something for me by next week. Not sure if it will be a nutrition plan, workout plan, or both.
Workout yesterday wasn't horrible. Got up to 95lbs for the snatch triple. Felt good!
He saw my fat loss goal and that I had a goal weight. He told me that if I concentrate on fat loss as a priority, that I would lose some of my strength and get tired faster during workouts and if I was okay with that. I immediately said yes. However, as the rest of the night went on...I was rethinking that whole thing. I dont want to lose a lot of strength!
But THEN I went over to my boyfriends and talked to him about it. He said that losing as much fat as I want while trying to build muscle would take an immense amount of dedication and perfect 100% flawless nutrition. And then he asked me the right question. "Right now...without thinking...tell me if you want to get stronger or lose fat" and immediately I responded lose fat. So I guess the game plan right now is to get to my goal 'size' and then work on my strength. I know it will be easier for me to do a lot of movements without the extra 40lbs on me so we'll see how it goes...
Jay told me he'd have something for me by next week. Not sure if it will be a nutrition plan, workout plan, or both.
Workout yesterday wasn't horrible. Got up to 95lbs for the snatch triple. Felt good!
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Amanda M...Day 306
So nice to speak with Anonymous (Brian) after class last night. Beyond amazed he has gone 100 days strict paleo. I wish I had that will power. Maybe I do...just not there yet. I need my sugar/chocolate or else I get extremely moody. Maybe it's a hormonal thing. Vaginas are a bitch
Anywho, last nights workout was not one of my favorites. Box jumps and I were never friends, and being out of the gym while stuffing my face with unmentionables for a month made me dislike them even more. I was on a 15" box and only managed about 5 jumps before I had to switch over to step ups. My legs were jello and I was huffing and puffing so hard....brought me back to my 260+lb days and I did not enjoy the feeling.
I will be meeting with Jay tonight to go over my goals and nutrition. I tossed and turned all night last night because it's all I could think about. Most people have a big list of goals. I have 2...
1. Fat loss (honestly, having the body I've always wanted will open the doors for me in more way than one--confidence, happiness, ability to move better, run better, pull ups, confidence to at least TRY moves that I'm too embarrassed to try and fail at)
2. Go-Ruck challenge. This is always something I've wanted to try, especially after reading about Yadi's experience!
Nutrition:
The week days are great. The weekends...not so much. Curious to see what he will have to say about it. I hope he goes the tough love route...that always works for me. My karate teacher-whom I knew since birth and trained with for 20 years-was always hard on me. I miss it.
My big question for Jay tonight will be...programming. Should I do it? Or will I be successful on my own? Can he weight me in every week/two weeks to keep me in line?
I will let you know how it goes. In the meantime...wtf is up with tonight's workout? Weird...
Anywho, last nights workout was not one of my favorites. Box jumps and I were never friends, and being out of the gym while stuffing my face with unmentionables for a month made me dislike them even more. I was on a 15" box and only managed about 5 jumps before I had to switch over to step ups. My legs were jello and I was huffing and puffing so hard....brought me back to my 260+lb days and I did not enjoy the feeling.
I will be meeting with Jay tonight to go over my goals and nutrition. I tossed and turned all night last night because it's all I could think about. Most people have a big list of goals. I have 2...
1. Fat loss (honestly, having the body I've always wanted will open the doors for me in more way than one--confidence, happiness, ability to move better, run better, pull ups, confidence to at least TRY moves that I'm too embarrassed to try and fail at)
2. Go-Ruck challenge. This is always something I've wanted to try, especially after reading about Yadi's experience!
Nutrition:
The week days are great. The weekends...not so much. Curious to see what he will have to say about it. I hope he goes the tough love route...that always works for me. My karate teacher-whom I knew since birth and trained with for 20 years-was always hard on me. I miss it.
My big question for Jay tonight will be...programming. Should I do it? Or will I be successful on my own? Can he weight me in every week/two weeks to keep me in line?
I will let you know how it goes. In the meantime...wtf is up with tonight's workout? Weird...
Monday, November 26, 2012
Amanda M...Day 304 & 305
Ah, the holiday is finally over. Now we have one month until the next shit show...time to do some work.
So my body basically hates me right now. I've stuffed it past its limits for days and I regret every bite (maybe wasnt regretting it while it was happening but definitely paying for it now...)
Today was the first time in a month that I was able to cook myself a good breakfast and lunch for work. It already feels great! Very happy to be back on track
So, this is going to be the game plan for me. I tried the no-sugar thing...twice. And each time, I failed miserably. And by that, I mean I had a few binge fests on candy and other sweets. I just can't live completely without...not yet. So, I brought dark chocolate covered almonds back into my life starting today. I will also be getting back into baking paleo treats. It keeps my cravings under control. Also, I've always been one to tell people "if you want something, just have it! Just dont go crazy..." so this method will keep me from going crazy.
I will let you all know how it goes--of course ;-)
Only 60 days left. Bittersweet. I will miss blogging...so it looks like I'll have to get my other page back into shape so I can continue writing to an audience of 0-2 people lol
How did you guys survive the holidays?
So my body basically hates me right now. I've stuffed it past its limits for days and I regret every bite (maybe wasnt regretting it while it was happening but definitely paying for it now...)
Today was the first time in a month that I was able to cook myself a good breakfast and lunch for work. It already feels great! Very happy to be back on track
So, this is going to be the game plan for me. I tried the no-sugar thing...twice. And each time, I failed miserably. And by that, I mean I had a few binge fests on candy and other sweets. I just can't live completely without...not yet. So, I brought dark chocolate covered almonds back into my life starting today. I will also be getting back into baking paleo treats. It keeps my cravings under control. Also, I've always been one to tell people "if you want something, just have it! Just dont go crazy..." so this method will keep me from going crazy.
I will let you all know how it goes--of course ;-)
Only 60 days left. Bittersweet. I will miss blogging...so it looks like I'll have to get my other page back into shape so I can continue writing to an audience of 0-2 people lol
How did you guys survive the holidays?
Friday, November 23, 2012
Amanda M...Day 302 & 303
Happy Thanksgiving all!
Man, I really stuffed myself yesterday. More than once.
Thursday I ate everything in sight. It is so freeing be able not to worry about what I eat. Not beating myself up for having pie, cake and ice cream all in one sitting. But once I get to that point where my 'fat pants' are getting more and more uncomfortable and tight...it all comes crashing back. I get reminded of how miserable I used to be in comparison to how happy I was at my smallest...sucks. I just cant have my cake and eat it too...I will have to watch what I eat for the rest of my life.
Jay wants to meet up this coming week to go over my goals. I feel like I've been expressing my goals this whole year and keep falling short every time. What I need to do is find what is going to finally get my ass in to gear and to keep me there. Maybe he will have some insight
Maybe I need to do weigh ins with him. To have someone else see my progress--or lack thereof--to keep me in check.
Anyways...happy holidays lol
Man, I really stuffed myself yesterday. More than once.
Thursday I ate everything in sight. It is so freeing be able not to worry about what I eat. Not beating myself up for having pie, cake and ice cream all in one sitting. But once I get to that point where my 'fat pants' are getting more and more uncomfortable and tight...it all comes crashing back. I get reminded of how miserable I used to be in comparison to how happy I was at my smallest...sucks. I just cant have my cake and eat it too...I will have to watch what I eat for the rest of my life.
Jay wants to meet up this coming week to go over my goals. I feel like I've been expressing my goals this whole year and keep falling short every time. What I need to do is find what is going to finally get my ass in to gear and to keep me there. Maybe he will have some insight
Maybe I need to do weigh ins with him. To have someone else see my progress--or lack thereof--to keep me in check.
Anyways...happy holidays lol
Thursday, November 22, 2012
Happy Thanksgiving - Day 302
Amanda, Nitro...Love you guys. That's all I want to say about that.
Ok, so the hard fact is that I Yadhira "Yadi" Ortiz allowed to let life get in the way of my goals when it comes to my overall fitness. Not saying I'm completely in the shits BUT I'm definitely not where I want to be physically. My athletic abilities have taken a dramatic turn. I have strayed away from what is considered traditional CF woding and have given myself to Oly lifting. Not saying that I would never wod again because I will trust me. But as every who knows me and have seen my posts, Oly's got my heart.
The down side of it all is I can't afford premium membership for now (hopefully this dry spell will end soon) and unfortunately one of the requirements before a sanctioned meet is that you get weighed in. Now I haven't weighed myself in a REALLLLY long time. I have no desire to do so for once in my life. But I saw the magic number and it was heartbreaking (but not a surprise) for about 5 minutes. I couldn't let my head space go there before a meet but trust me its been floating around my head for the past couple of days. I gained alot of weight...no really, I mean a lot of weight. And no I'm not that mature to tell you how much I weigh ;-).
I'm actually confused that I can still fit in my clothing...but add more weight and it's a wrap. My one pair of skinny jeans? Forget it! My thighs violently laughed at me the last time I tried to wear them.
The beauty of it all is that I've grown mentally about this whole weight thing. I've become numb to it. Not too long ago I would totally trip and just get so down about my weight. It would change my mood like the sky was falling. Not anymore, I can't explain it. Now its like I tell myself, "ok bitch you know what you have to do now get to it! This ain't your first time at the rodeo!"
Hell I knew this almost two weeks ago without getting weighed. I knew that I had to shift gears and mean it and stop starting over and over again.
So what's the upside to this blog on Thanksgiving day. The fact of the matter is that the first time I lost the weight on my own with no gym membership. Just pure tenacity, want, determination and drive. So there is no reason to fuck up is there? If theres a will theres a way. I still have CFM, I went through the grapevine and found a stationary frame for my bike at no cost. So yea I have an airdyne minus the fan in my room now. So I just have to get just as creative like I did almost 3 years ago.
So if my calculations are correct we got 63 days till this YLA is over? Before I even saw this blog I knew as of Monday that today would be my last legit splurge. And starting anew on Friday. So I have 63 days to shake shit up. Lets start with a small time frame and see what kind of damage (in a good way of course) I can do in that time. I plan on going out with a bang on this one!!!
Smooches
xoxoxox
Ok, so the hard fact is that I Yadhira "Yadi" Ortiz allowed to let life get in the way of my goals when it comes to my overall fitness. Not saying I'm completely in the shits BUT I'm definitely not where I want to be physically. My athletic abilities have taken a dramatic turn. I have strayed away from what is considered traditional CF woding and have given myself to Oly lifting. Not saying that I would never wod again because I will trust me. But as every who knows me and have seen my posts, Oly's got my heart.
The down side of it all is I can't afford premium membership for now (hopefully this dry spell will end soon) and unfortunately one of the requirements before a sanctioned meet is that you get weighed in. Now I haven't weighed myself in a REALLLLY long time. I have no desire to do so for once in my life. But I saw the magic number and it was heartbreaking (but not a surprise) for about 5 minutes. I couldn't let my head space go there before a meet but trust me its been floating around my head for the past couple of days. I gained alot of weight...no really, I mean a lot of weight. And no I'm not that mature to tell you how much I weigh ;-).
I'm actually confused that I can still fit in my clothing...but add more weight and it's a wrap. My one pair of skinny jeans? Forget it! My thighs violently laughed at me the last time I tried to wear them.
The beauty of it all is that I've grown mentally about this whole weight thing. I've become numb to it. Not too long ago I would totally trip and just get so down about my weight. It would change my mood like the sky was falling. Not anymore, I can't explain it. Now its like I tell myself, "ok bitch you know what you have to do now get to it! This ain't your first time at the rodeo!"
Hell I knew this almost two weeks ago without getting weighed. I knew that I had to shift gears and mean it and stop starting over and over again.
So what's the upside to this blog on Thanksgiving day. The fact of the matter is that the first time I lost the weight on my own with no gym membership. Just pure tenacity, want, determination and drive. So there is no reason to fuck up is there? If theres a will theres a way. I still have CFM, I went through the grapevine and found a stationary frame for my bike at no cost. So yea I have an airdyne minus the fan in my room now. So I just have to get just as creative like I did almost 3 years ago.
So if my calculations are correct we got 63 days till this YLA is over? Before I even saw this blog I knew as of Monday that today would be my last legit splurge. And starting anew on Friday. So I have 63 days to shake shit up. Lets start with a small time frame and see what kind of damage (in a good way of course) I can do in that time. I plan on going out with a bang on this one!!!
Smooches
xoxoxox
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