5.29.12- Morgan

Hey all! Been on vacay for the past 10 days, but I'm back. I worked out every day, sometimes twice a day, and ate pretty well! I did have some cheats & drank a little. But I feel good! The no-stress, carefree relaxation time did my body good. I slept awesome!! I got to sleep for 8-10 hours at a time :) Loved it!

1 piece Ekekiel bread w/ almond butter, 1 turkey sausage link, 1/3 cup granola w/ almond milk

1 plain hamburger

1/3 cup quinoa with shrimp, spinach, and zucchini

1 piece of Ezekiel bread w/ all-fruit spread (pre-workout)

Spinach salad with peppers, cucs, toms, chicken

WOD:
Warmed up with 53 lb snatches 3x 10
500 meter run
25 snatches @ 43lbs
40 burpees
25 snatches @ 43lbs
500 meter run
Finished in 13:13

I should have Rxed it. I doubted myself though, and no one pushed me to add more weight. The hubby's doing BBC now, and he's normally the one I compete with.

I've been doing really well on my extra running workouts! I love the performance results I'm seeing with the speedwork and time trials, and I'm feeling pretty good. <3 I'm in the 3rd week now, and I'm sticking to it. 

5.17.12- Morgan

Good & rested! Hopefully, I can do my 45 min run + WOD today. My body definitely needed a break.

Breakfast
1/2 piece of tilapia, 1/4 cup peas, 1/4 cup quinoa, & 1/4 cup spinach

2 coconut waters, 2 cups of black coffee

Starving by 11AM

...more later

5.16.12- Morgan

I'm starting off slow this morning... only got 3 hours of sleep, and my brain really isn't functioning properly lol I'm debating whether I should leave work and go back home to rest. I'm supposed to do a 45 min ez run today + Cindy tonight, but I don't know if I'll have the energy. Also, I need to go grocery shopping because I have absolutely no food in the house. No meat at all.

Breakfast
1/2 cup plain oatmeal with 2 tbsp 100% fruit jam mixed in (like I said... no food in the house... that was an act of desperation rather than go hungry this AM)

Lunch
1 piece of pork with broccoli and cauliflower
1 bowl of blackeyed pea soup with ham

Snack
Tilapia and peas

Exhausted & dehydrated. I went to bed and took a rest day.

Dinner
Tilapia, 1 chicken sausage, peas, spinach, & 1/4 quinoa

Dessert
1/4 cup raisins, 2 squares 90% dark chocolate, 1 glass of red wine

2 mugs of black coffee
64 oz water; 1 coconut water

5.9.12- Morgan

I met with Jay yesterday about how frustrated I am with not seeing results. I just feel an overall dissatisfaction with my body. I've been Crossfitting for almost 1.5 years, but I still don't have the body I want.

So Jay suggested a couple things like going to bed by 10:30 every night. I tried it last night and felt pretty good when I woke up. He suggested eliminating eggs and dairy for 3 weeks. And no more snacks like hummus/carrots or apple/almond butter :( He said to stick with meat and veggies in the afternoon/evening.

I was freaking nervous about getting pinched again. It's been over a month since the last time, but I'm feeling bigger! Guess what??? My numbers are apparently down (a little bit), so maybe the fat feeling is all in my head?? My stomach stayed the same. Everything else went down. And my legs are just muscle... which doesn't help me get back into my jeans, but at least they're not fat. Too many damn squats lol

So then Jay asked me whether I want CrossFit to improve my aesthetics or performance. My body is performing at its optimum level of strength, endurance, speed, and flexibility because of how it's structured right now. So if I mess with that and change the composition of my body (i.e. thin out or whatever) and switch up my workout routine, then I may not perform the same as I do now. I have to think about whether or not I care about Rxing weight or going up in weight on my lifts.

I just don't want to lose my speed/endurance with running. But maybe I only run as fast as I do now because of the heavy squats I do... Err...

It's a give and take, and I'm still trying to weigh out my options.

Any thoughts?


Breakfast
2 slices of Ezekiel bread w/ 2 tbs 100% fruit jam
Granola w/ almond milk

Snack
1/2 chicken breast, 1/2 cup broccoli

Lunch
1 chicken breast, 1 cup broccoli, 1-2 cups bell pepper strips

Snack
1 chicken sausage; 1 chicken breast with spinach and tomatoes

Dinner
1 plain turkey burger on spinach salad with peas & avocado

5.6.12- Morgan

Sandwich w/ 2 slices of Ezekiel bread, goat cheese, 4 apple slices, & 100% fruit jam
Cranberry almond bar
1/2 sandwich - 1 slice of Ezekiel bread, goat cheese, 2 apple slices, 100% fruit jam, and 1 slice deli turkey
1 chicken leg
1/4 cup blueberries
Turkey burger & baked beans 
Sangria & vino 

Yoga!
Too many carbs today but ain't pretty healthy.

5.5.12- Morgan

Scrambled eggs, guacamole, & 3 chicken sausage links
1 Siggi's yogurt
1/2 banana
Red Machine Naked juice
Cobb salad & black bean soup from Panera
1 glass of sangria- happy cinco de mayo!!
Zombie race! 5k. Not as running-oriented as I expected. A lot of mud you had to walk through. Too much hype.

5.4.12 - Morgan

1/2 cup granola with almond milk
2 cups mixed fresh fruit
Chicken & white bean soup
2 pieces of pork
Carrots & hummus
Salad with 3 chicken tenders, shrimp, almonds, black eyed peas, cucs, & toms
Rest day! Zombie 5k tmrw! Mmm yum brains.

5.4.12 - Morgan

Last night, after I had already blogged, I drank another glass of wine, sweet potato fries, & 5 buffalo wings (definitely fried). I was already feeling gross and having a fat day, so this didn't help. Normally, I cheat on Fridays, but I have a 5k tomorrow and need to feel great for the race. So anyway, there's really no good excuse. Eat shitty, look shitty. Can't keep sabotaging my progress. 1/2 cup granola w/ almond milk ...more later

5.3.12 - Morgan

1/2 cup granola w/ almond milk
1 piece of pork w/ broccoli
5 carrots w/ 2 tbs hummus
Salad w/ tilapia, cucs, & toms
Protein shake w/ almond milk, celery, carrots, spinach, & 1/2 cup berries
2 glasses of red wine 
WOD: sucked so good! Lol  85 lbs for squat clean; Coach Mike said I had "good form" on the rope slams.
I'm feeling fat. Not sure why...

5.2.12 - Morgan

I started eating KIND granola a few days ago. It has amaranth, quinoa, oats, millet, and buckwheat in it. I'm waiting for Dr. Jaime to let me know if it's okay that I added it into my nutritional plan (probably not lol). I was told to eat some carbs, since I'm A+ blood type, but I may be pushing it. I asked about Ezekiel bread too because I miss sandwiches, and almond flour bread is becoming too costly and time-consuming to make from scratch every week. I guess I'll find out soon if these two items need to be eliminated from my diet.

...

Just received an email response from Dr. Jaime! I can eat granola and Ezekiel bread. I am psyched :) I don't feel so deprived anymore.

1/2 cup granola with almond milk
1/2 piece of tilapia & snap peas
1/4 cup almonds
1 piece of pork
Spinach salad with tilapia, cucs, toms, & avocado
1/2 cup granola
Protein shake with spinach, berries, & coconut water

WOD
Holy crap... that was tough!

8 min round
5 kipping pull-ups w/ blue band (a first for me during a workout!)
10 sec L-sit hold (more like knees-to-elbow hold)
10 push-ups (girly ones)
10 sit-ups
100 m sprint (one thing I'm good at!)

8 min round
5 ring rows
20 DUs (single-single-doubles)
20 lunge steps
20 sec dip hold thing

8 min round
1 min burpees - 12, 10, 10, 12
1 min box jumps (20") - 10, 10, 11, 17

5.1.12 - Morgan

Here's the truth...
I didn't want to think about the YLA as a support group because I seriously thought I had it all under control... I was following my healthy eating plan, beginning marathon training, thoroughly enjoying life, and the numbers showed great results back when I last checked with Jay.

Then I started overtraining which completely messed up my body. I was doing two-a-days constantly, back to back WODs and 6-mile runs, etc. I kept pushing myself too far without any recovery. I was exhausted, sick (puking), and even missed my period... kinda sounds like pregnancy symptoms! I had to see the doctor to make sure everything was okay, physically. I was MIA from the blog for about two weeks when dealing with all that... I just didn't want anyone to know. So no... I wasn't pregnant but overtraining just seriously messed me up.

Then a series of terrible events took place on the job front... I became more stressed out than ever, when my two supervisors quit, and in essence, I was given all of their work, expectations, and deadlines. I am absolutely miserable now at work. Everyday, I think about quitting. I'm tearing up in the break room as I'm writing this because being here makes me so unhappy. I dread coming here in the mornings.

So anyway... This is not affecting my workouts. I run, do WODs, and yoga regularly (no more crazy two-a-days though). I definitely feel on track with the fitness aspect of things. But all of the work stress is affecting my persona. I'm normally such a fun, happy person, and my job is sucking all of the joy out of me.

I eat really well during the week, have an occasional cheat on the weekends, drink a few glasses of wine here and there... But maybe I need to talk to Dr. Jamie about things because my pants feel tight! I feel so uncomfortable.

Something really has to change. If blogging and accountability will help... I'll try it out again. But I just didn't want this to become my way of venting about all the extra shit and baggage I'm dealing with outside of the gym. So I'll keep it to a minimum and try to stay focused.

Thanks for listening and reading!

Scrambled eggs, 1 small piece of pork, & 1 tsp goat cheese
8 oz water; 1 cup coffee w/ almond milk
1 piece of pork, spinach, cauliflower rice
64 oz water
Plain Greek yogurt with granola
Protein shake with coconut water, berries, & spinach
1/2 piece of tilapia, broccoli, & snap peas, glass of wine
85% cacao chocolate
64 oz water

Ran 30 sec sprints & 3 miles