Maria- Dad's B-day

Yeah so my mom is the greatest cook EVER- both of my parents are off the boat Italian, so I knew it was going to be rough tonight when I had to go celebrate my dad's birthday.  I was right, she made homemade gnocchi from scratch, and I LOVE MY MOTHER'S GNOCCHI!!!  Along with her homemade meatballs and sauce and other special dishes that she usually does not make.  I stayed outside on the deck reading because I didn't trust myself to sit there at the table and NOT eat it.  I waited until the second course (grilled chicken and steak) was served.  Then I left the table again after singing happy b-day so that I wouldn't be tempted by the Carvel Cake or the BIG ASS chocolate chip cookies from Costco along with a dozen assorted doughnuts from Dunk Donuts.  I ate grapes and walnuts.  Even though I said I was staying away from nuts and fruit, I felt like I would fall off the wagon if I didn't.  This sounds horrible, and I know it is not right to avoid social situations, but I really did not want to go there tonight.  I feel like putting myself in a situation like that makes it harder than it has to be.  At the same time, I don't want to be a hermit and isolate myself from the world.